11-gun salute

I just took an 11-gun salute, whatever that may be. From my father. Many times, I don't want to call him dad. But he made me, no matter what. A classmate once told me I was a fox, a survivor. For surviving a cruelty I call "dad".

The 11-gun salute (warn shots) was for the destruction of some plants of a project I worked to attain. Just yesterday, I cried, cried because I have several seedling tree plants - stray plants I nurtured and re-planted, placed tree guards - the better of which our street will be shady come sunny season... better of which my kids or their kids will have some trees to climb like I did when I was a kid  - destroyed by stupid goats - our goats included.

Anyway, he - the father /dad - said it was I that was destroying his name. Maybe, he felt it, too. For up to my old age of maybe 190 now- I was still contemplating if I should right the wrong done to me. Not so much as to "us" - the family we never was.

I grew up in pain and torture, physical, emotional and mental. I had to run away from "home" at the age of 13/14 to escape his cruelty. I worked as house help to earn a degree. Because I received beatings for any or no reason at all. All over my body - head, hands, feet, 'til the beating stick frayed and gave up, 'til I no longer feel the pain. And then, I said to a being they call Jesus, "You were lucky, you were 30 / bigger and stronger when they beat you. Luckier still, you did not call your tormentors 'father'..."

It was not only me, but I always felt he hated me the most. It was probably because I always tell the truth. It was probably because in July 2005, when he shot a gun to silence me in front of my 3 scared innocent kids,  I only replied, "I can't be afraid of your gun. If I will, nobody will ever tell you the truth."

This time again, I am being blamed and threatened to my bones with my kids afraid. I am being silenced for things I was being blamed. That I was destroying his name.

And I have been having second thoughts about that for a long time now. Should I proceed to fight him? I am very tempted. I guess, this is more than the shove and the push. I have become this defiant because of a man I called "dad". I have become fearless about a lot of things, including filing a suit against the most powerful men in our block (OK, town) because he made me.

The 11 gun salute did not kill me, it must have made me stronger. It might be another sign to right a wrong I have let pass for decades now. Jesus, I am so old. I could have died several decades back, and done with all this shit, but I wasn't. I am alive, and I am fighting. I won't let shit win if I have to die doing it.

PGS

Incidentally, Pellet Gun Society was inspired by the abnormal desire of my son to have guns. Luckily, it is all toy guns. He wants the real ones when the right time comes. He wants to become a soldier. I don't get it at all: people wanting to become soldiers?

I'd like to link it to his want for order. He hates disorder and violators.  But still, I wish he gets over it. So I buy him a lot of distraction, because I noted he has dexterous hands at visual arts... and pellet guns - i want to believe that by buying all the pellet gun models he likes, he'll grow up off it.

Hopefully.

What kind of a mother would want his son to become a soldier?

Money

For me not to be interested with money and material wealth would be hypocritical. But I was never as drawn to it as majority of the people I know of which many prob'bly have no inkling I exist. I noticed how it was EVERYTHING to them.

Envy. Of course I have it, too. I sometimes wish I could pull out like them -lies on top of old lies. Or even cruelty. To amass wealth, certain qualities need be present: foremost greed and cruelty: Siamese twins. They don't separate ever. There is utter disregard for consequences, irresponsibility. Heartlessness.

This is one of the reasons why capitalism does not sit well on my vocabulary. The ulterior motive is always profit, and everything in-between just tools, if not barriers that needs to be either used or eliminated. It's sickening. For it to function properly, it must be cold-blooded, ruthless.

It reduces humanity into evil. It believes in programmed, scientific progression. But humans cannot be robots that are programmed. Therefore, it employs a lot of ways and means to be able to deliver on time, sell on time, profit on time.

I hate doing this - analysing sick practices.

Thinking About Education & Government

Education and law (or government?) are interestingly parallel in an opposite manner. Education is practically undertaken to reduce ignorance, and create wholesome, independent, productive, and better (than after they were born) individuals.

Meanwhile, governments were created to "control" and "protect" wholesome individuals from un-wholesome individuals.

Since education has virtually erased ignorance for most adult individuals, then, peoples from all over the world should start reducing "government bureaucracy" sizes as well as their controls because education has resulted to more pliant, sensitized, and disciplined individuals.

Firing Squad

Today,  new law is added in this society: firing squad. Where a person prosecuted has defaulted to more than 3 cases, this person will be ordered for firing squad. The complainants will shoot him with pellet gun in the view of the public for a minute for as much as they (the complainants) can load.

I am loving this!

The Economy

For reasons beyond the law of gravity, the economy has dictated the logic of most men... like obliterating nations - for their petroleum, and threatening another for more petrol... Actually, it's a topic most mature people engage into, like - mostly worrying about it.
And yet we keep on reading about a few people accumulating all the economies of this world... kinda. They got lucky, they were industrious, strategic... and how we'd drool to be in their shoes... (except for their personal worries, tho').
But to be from Generation Why Bother and asked about it... is of course bothersome. If there ain't no job and nobody's taking me, why worry? It will be a more peaceful world. Unless of course Sadam reincarnates in Iran or Afghanistan.

PGS online

The online system of PGS will feature "common" (popular in other terms) personalities that virtual members can shoot online adopting the special force platform. Some of those to be listed include George Bush (the younger), and his cohorts.

There will be various "offenses" to be listed for each personality of which notices will also be filled up and be sent. Prior to shooting, 3 notices has been sent by a member of the society. The targets of course will not be "facing" their cases, so, they become common targets in a shooting range. After the 3rd notice, the member can start shooting but with limited bullets (I'll still ponder on how many bullets would each one gets for a dollar).

Nevertheless, even members can file a resolution against each other. Please refer to this for details.

The personality and members with the highest deaths shall be featured on the front page and for the various reasons that he had been shot. Although at this time I still am contemplating on this, they become the celebrities of the PGS.

It's pathetic, and it looks like reality to me now.

Welcome to my utopia.

Arbitration

if there is any form of a system that I will advocate in this society, it is the arbitration system. It is also a business, but not a government. This system will require all those who will avail of its service as members (thus, a membership fee). Membership is of course voluntary.

all members abide by its rules:
1. All disputes will start resolution with a notice which form will be filled up by the member.
2. The arbitration form shall be delivered by the arbitrator's office.
3. There will only be 3 notices of which failure by the respondent to settle with the complainant in front of the arbitrator upon delivery of the 3rd notice makes the respondent an open target for pellet gunning.
4. All pellet guns will use the 6 mm plastic bullet.
5. The respondent who have not settled his case is not allowed to shoot the complainant.
6. All members can only use and carry with them anywhere pellet guns.
7. Upon deliberation, the guilty party shall abide by what has been agreed by all parties (arbitrator, complainant and respondent) in a given time frame.
8. The respondent, therefore, even if guilty, has a say in the resolution.
9. Failure by the conflicting parties to abide by their agreement will carry with it additional penalties.

So, basically, my society has nothing else as a common body except the arbitration. All others shall embrace the free enterprise system.

However, unlike the free enterprise system, this society will not establish corporations. Every enterprise will be represented by its main owner. This is to avoid big problems about corporations that cannot be handled properly.

Governments are Big Business of the Ruling Class

no, i don't like studying or going to school. universities are the stuff that the corporate world uses to brainwash able-bodied young men and women...

... i just noticed after reading (involuntarily) thousands of articles about any thing and everything under the sun and beyond, I finally came to the conclusion that every form of government is a big business of the ruling class... ruling class because the leaders change, but only among them - the ruling class.

the ruling class came from what Herbert Spencer called survivors (the fittest). He specifically wrote: “This survival of the fittest, which I have here sought to express in mechanical terms, is that which Mr. Darwin has called 'natural selection', or the preservation of favoured races in the struggle for life."

Note the "favoured."

As a business, they (democratic vs socialism vs communism vs dictatorial vs oligarchic), each has its own selling point, the better of which is to fool the masses.

now... not that I am an anarchist, but obviously, I am...

neither am i violent - it is why a pellet gun is the most destructive weapon I'll ever want...

from here on i'll create my  utopia... and critic the world that governments build.